This is a post I just feel the need to write.
Sometimes I am plagued by the green-eyed monster. I get all frazzly trying to stay on my toes and make sure my duckies are in a row and I jog after that darn Jones family.
Sometimes I feel like a neighbor peeking in the window to see what’s really going on in the bloggy house next door. I think some honestly have it all together, and I applaud them. Seriously. I feel no ill-will toward my friends who do, who feel called to have a bigger presence in this online world, and who have found balance with the important things. In fact, I celebrate them, and visit them, and learn from them.
But I just know me. And I know the choices I need to make to keep my life in order, my mind and heart focused, and my blogging in the place on the list it belongs.
I have seen lately a number of online friends going through challenges of priorities and balance, making hard choices, and it has reminded me of something very important. Something I decided when I came back online a year and a half ago.
I am content being small.
I love having community, being a part of an amazing network, and connecting with beautiful women. I am encouraged, I write (which I love), I share, I laugh, I pray. These are all wonderful things.
But I also am a homeschooler, a wife, a mom who loves a mean (and I do mean “mean”) game of Settlers of Catan, a wanna-be artist, a runner, and a smattering of other things that are gifts from God and fill me up with purpose.
This post is not for anyone but myself, and maybe those bloggers who are really struggling and need someone to say, “It’s OK to be small.” Balance is a hard thing to find, and if you are one of those wringing your hands over your bloggy size, wondering what’s more important, then you already deep down know the answer. Like I do.
So if you’re a reader here, thank you. I love that you come here! I hope you find some support and encouragement and a thought or two to ponder. I am happy with my smallness– it feels cozy and just right.
I hope you think so too.
Photo Credit: D. Sharon Pruitt